quietly fall down.

i.
I'm tired of only drawing
scribbles on my paper,
because they remind me of
my messed up, murdered
heart.

ii.
Its more painful to laugh
than to smile. I want to
cry; I just want to
laugh right beside you.

(It won't be happening soon.)

iii.
When I realize it, my
heart is already spilling over for
you. I just want to disappear.
It'd feel so much more real
than this.


iv.
I remember it..
I'll carry this sadness.
Silently,
I'll fall down.